Embracing the bald look

Well, so much has happened today i wouldn't know where to begin. Let's start with the hair, I woke up this morning and it was even more patchier than yesterday! The patches were growing and I was moulting a lot. Now there are 2 dogs that moult in the house already and we don't need another source of hair droppings. So I said to myself, I will have to just shave it all off soon as it was starting to look silly and I would have to start wearing a hat anyway, so I might as well shave it. It was too early to do in the morning as I had an appointment to get to. I had a Long Line insertion where they put a small tube into one of your veins near the neck and then feed it through to get as close to the heart as possible. This helps pump the medicine around the body more efficiently and it also means that there will be no more needle for blood test or cannulas as this is like a permanent cannula. The procedure was not actually too bad. The worse bit was the anaesthetic needles which stung like f***! I got jabbed once in the chest and one in the neck! Not nice. Then they just insert the line in and then do X-rays to see where it is and if it's close enough to the heart. It was done in 10 mins. Now I am currently very sore from it. It hurts to turn your neck and it's just uncomfortable at the moment. It should be like that for the next few days but it's not the worse feeling in the world.
After the insertion, I then had a very important meeting with my consultant. I was going to find out the results of the bone marrow test. While waiting in the waiting room, I was nervous but I didn't have a funny feeling like i did for the biopsy results when I found out I had cancer. These results were important because if the bone marrow was infected then I would just refuse the treatments and enjoy the time I had left. Luckily this is not going to be the case for me as the results were good and it all came back clear. To also finish a day with even more good news, while he was checking me, he tried to feel the tumour. He tried really had to find it but he couldn't. He said that last time he could definitely feel a large lump easily but it was gone. Looks like the cancer is responding really well to the treatment and it's shrinking a lot and making a big difference already. If the results are this good from the first treatment, I am looking forward to what's going to happen after 5 more treatments! I have to say that I've been feeling really good this week and on few days I haven't used a stick to walk and not taken any medication or pain killers. I am feeling so much better and nearly 100%. People would probably not know that anything was wrong if my hair was fine.
That brings me to the last part of the day and the one everyone is interested to see. It's not a bad thing or a horrible thing that we are curious about these things and that we want to see it. I would be the same if it was about anyone I knew. And also one of the reason I'm posting this picture is so when my friends see me, it's less of a shock to them. Like I mentioned before, everyone has seen me being myself and back to normal and I'm sure people forget, like i do sometimes, that i do have this horrible disease. Without a visual representation, it's easier to forget and maybe not even understand. I have to admit, it's sunk in a lot more now to me what I am going through and that I will have to be at my lowest before I can get back to the top. The journey almost begins here as things are only going to get harder from now! But I say bring it on! I didn't let the hair fall out completely coz of the cancer, I cut it. I didn't let myself get an infection, I looked after myself. I haven't been sick and my appetite has definitely not disappeared! So far I am staying one step ahead and the only price that I have to pay is to lose my hair! I have lots of hats to chose from each day so it's not a problem and it's not forever! I used to have to shave twice I week which I hated so it's gonna be nice to have a little break : ).

Anyways here it is... Officialy bald and proud : )!