So session 2 has now begun. I thought I would quickly post a blog post before I feel to crap and
start the long 3 day napping session. I’ve ended up having a good weekend with
visits from my family and friends. I’ve always end up feeling great after
seeing my friends for it was nice to catch up with everyone before going back
into the hospital.
I am really dreading getting the
chemo. Now that I know what to expect and how bad it is, I really just hate the
thought of having it. Imagine the feeling of having to go to the dentist to
have your teeth removed, you know it’s going to be painful and it’s not a pleasant
experience. This is how I feel with the chemo, I don’t want to have it because
I know how bad it’s going to make me feel. I think it’s even worse now since I
feel really good in myself and don’t have any pain so I think why do I have to
have it, but then I look in the mirror and I’m remind of what’s growing inside
me. Well it’s not growing anymore and that’s thanks to the chemo. So just need
to stop being a wimp and get on with it. There’s actually people who are a lot
more worse off than me and I need to snap out of it and appreciate that I’m
actually going to be ok and I have the rest of my life to look forward to. On
Thursday I met a girl in the waiting room who was 19 and she was told that she
only had 6 months to live and she is currently in her 9th month and
she was smiling and it didn’t look like there was anything wrong with her. I
actually thought it was her sister that had cancer as her hair looked like a
wig but I think she just had a bad haircut. I think that girl is such an
inspiration and I’m always going to remember her and think how lucky I actually
am. Yes I know it’s ironic saying how lucky I am but I am, this is not a
terminal cancer, it’s just a long and difficult treatment process. At least I
can plan my holiday for next year and think about the future without worrying
if I will be there.
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