"I am my hair"

As Lady Gaga sings "I am my hair". This is definitely true in my case as I have to admit, I am very vain about my hair. My appearance has changed over the years: I've put weight on, style of my clothes has changed but I've always relied on my hair to make me look good. I am not saying I am the most good looking person in the world, I am just saying that when I do my hair, my confidence is lifted and I feel happier within myself. When I was younger I had really short hair which made me realise I have a massive head. With longer hair, I can shape it to disguise the look of it.
When I was told I could have Lymphoma, I was also told that my hair will most likely NOT fall out. Then when I found out I actually had Ewing's one of the first things I was told that my hair will definitely go due to the drugs involved with the chemotherapy. There is also not an option for a 'Cold Cap' which helps prevent hair loss during chemotherapy due to the intensive chemo I will have. I have had to come to terms that my hair will go and to prepare myself I asked my hair dresser and a very close friend Maddie to cut my hair really short the day before my chemo starts. I am really dreading it as I don't think the short hair will suit me but at the end of the day, it's a small price to pay to live longer. When you put it in that perspective it doesn't sound that bad.
What I want to make clear is that guys especially teenagers and younger adults are affected by hair loss as well as women. We now live in a society where men take pride in their appearance as much as women do and I think that it is important to remember that it is okay to feel upset about losing hair and that there are things out there to help with this.
I have been advised that I will be entitled to a free wig which I will definitely look into but what matters the most is that I am alive and the hair loss is only temporary. I might consider wearing a wig if it doesn't look to fake when I go out into public, this is to help me with my confidence. I feel like I should be treated like any other person whether I have cancer or not, so if I can draw attention away from myself, it would make me feel a lot happier.
One thing I was really surprised about is how quickly I will lose my hair. I thought it would be after my 2nd or 3rd treatment but apparently it starts falling out few days after the first treatment. What I need to remember is that... if the hair is falling out, the treatment is working and it is only temporarily.