It hits you out of nowhere. It just doesn't make sense when all you see is JUST a couple of bags of fluid injected in you and you can only think to yourself just how much harm can that do. Well the answer is a lot. It's some pretty toxic stuff which is doing a lot or harm to your body in the short term but helping in the long run. Thats something I keep reminding myself whenever I feel low and yes, it doesn't help you feel physically better hence the reason I haven't blogged in few days but I need to stay positive! I have been quite upset about it as I felt like I was failing myself by not being prepared enough, strong enough and failing to be an inspiration to those who are going through a similar thing. I didn't want to blog and winge and put people off by scaring them at how hard and horrible it makes you feel. When I started this blog i wanted it to be an honest diary of what I was going through but what I need to remember it's not all going to be about the great achievements, they will come after the last chemo session and the surgery. It's also important to remember the small steps though, the tough one which have helped you get to those achievements! I don't want to spend a lot of time concentrating on the bad stuff so I won't talk in too much detail about them but I will mention them.
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